What to chuck.. what not to chuck?!!
Friday night, 12.45am.
In my room.. trying to pack. Tonight Josh came over and spent some quality time with me. Was heaps cool! He brought over this stupid movie.. Blades of Glory.. haha okay it was so stupid but some parts were really, really funny. After, we watched this other movie - one i picked. haha - Bring it on - ALL OR NOTHING!! HAHA its just seriously because I like Hayden P. haha Josh wont admit it, but he loves it! hahahaha.
Then he left, and I started packing... but right now.. im starting to freak out again. What the hell have i gotten myself into? I look around my room.. half packed.. Law and Order playing on my DVD player.. clothes and bags strewn everywhere, on the bed... the floor is filled with trash bags, paper, litter, clothes.. OMG im really moving.
This is reality.
This is happening.
This is now.
God please see me through this next week. I dont know how to react.. Everytime i pack I feel so scared.. what with bills, mortgage.. the responsiblity and ownership of what you have given me and blessed me with.. I know that you said that with blessings, come responsibility. You also said TO whom much is given, much is expected. OMG. So what am I supposed to do now?But I know everything will be okay in the end. Its just that I really dont do well when I know things are about to change forever. Once I get used to living in my new house, and get used to where things are etc, I will be fine. Today after work I walked to the city, listening to my iPod. It also gave me a good chance to think and reflect about the kindness of God, and how he has so kindly and graciously seen me through this year. God is so, SO kind.
And I felt in my spirit, as i was walking, and listening to Michelle Branch (ok I think God doesnt need to speak only when im listening to christian music).. I just felt God saying.. "Calm down, stop over analysing this, and enjoy it.." I dont know if im right or not, but OH WELL I dont care, because.. that did it for me.. I just felt so happy...and peaceful. haha.
haha but now its late, and its dark outside. I am freaking out because I know things are about to change forever, but I know in the long run, it will be okay.
It will always, ALWAYS be okay.
So right now im looking forward to a busy weekend!
Between packing all my stuff into boxes, This saturday, I have to squash a back up singers meeting (that i am organising), an open house inspection, a work christmas dinner function at night...
On sunday I have church, and then am going shopping with Serena at Harbour town. By sunday night everything has to be pretty much packed into boxes.
Im getting the keys on Monday immediately after the settlement, and will start moving in for real on Tuesday onwards(after i throughly clean the house Monday night), as my rent ends effectively this Thursday...
Its all very exciting, and all very, very cool.
i am so looking forward to it.
Imagine.. by next friday, I will be living in my new house.
Please pray for me. I need it.
deb's outta there..
