"No wonder I call You Saviour... No wonder I'm singing...
I just feel so.. overwhelmed.. by God. He is truly awesome.
At GRIP camp, the speaker took me aside and told me somethings about my spiritual life and ministry. I was soo encouraged. But at the same time, I was thinking, "All this sounds so good and awesome and unbelievable.. BUT!! How the hell am I gonna do this? I feel so much pressure."
And all these excuses kept on coming up in my mind.
"I can't do it.. I'm not good enough, and I can't think creatively."
"I dont even do QT properly - I dont even know HOW to do it properly." - which is true I still don't. Any handy hints from anyone? (hint.. GAIUS?!) lol
"I need an instrument. AND I can only play in G on the guitar, so getting a guitar won't help. A piano would be impossible, because of the price and the fact that I dont have anywhere to put it."
WELL, God just shut me up on that last comment. YES folks, I am the proud owner of a KEYBOARD!! MAn he just shut me down on all the excuses, but I felt that the most.
Like, yesterday, Josh just casually went "Hey Deb, You have a keyboard now. Someone donated one to the church, and the church has no idea where to store it. In fact the donator just wanted to get rid of it, so its Yours to keep. You have to just buy a pedal and a stand, all up will only cost you $40."
i was like "OMG!! ARE YOU SERIOUS?! I HAVE A KEYBOARD?!!"
God, You are the Almighty Provider. Teach me to trust in you completely. I am so, so humbled by your provision. I can't believe you would do this for me. I really can't. No wonder I call You Savior.. No wonder my soul sings. God I love you. In my weaknesses your grace covers me. Thank you so much God. Thank You. I just thought this was a good testimonial to focus on God's provision. He WILL provide for you according to his will. HE WILL. Just keep asking him. Keep at it!!
deb's outta there..
