Thursday, April 26, 2007
"No wonder I call You Saviour... No wonder I'm singing...
I just feel so.. overwhelmed.. by God. He is truly awesome.
At GRIP camp, the speaker took me aside and told me somethings about my spiritual life and ministry. I was soo encouraged. But at the same time, I was thinking, "All this sounds so good and awesome and unbelievable.. BUT!! How the hell am I gonna do this? I feel so much pressure."
And all these excuses kept on coming up in my mind.
"I can't do it.. I'm not good enough, and I can't think creatively."
"I dont even do QT properly - I dont even know HOW to do it properly." - which is true I still don't. Any handy hints from anyone? (hint.. GAIUS?!) lol
"I need an instrument. AND I can only play in G on the guitar, so getting a guitar won't help. A piano would be impossible, because of the price and the fact that I dont have anywhere to put it."
WELL, God just shut me up on that last comment. YES folks, I am the proud owner of a KEYBOARD!! MAn he just shut me down on all the excuses, but I felt that the most.
Like, yesterday, Josh just casually went "Hey Deb, You have a keyboard now. Someone donated one to the church, and the church has no idea where to store it. In fact the donator just wanted to get rid of it, so its Yours to keep. You have to just buy a pedal and a stand, all up will only cost you $40."
i was like "OMG!! ARE YOU SERIOUS?! I HAVE A KEYBOARD?!!"
God, You are the Almighty Provider. Teach me to trust in you completely. I am so, so humbled by your provision. I can't believe you would do this for me. I really can't. No wonder I call You Savior.. No wonder my soul sings. God I love you. In my weaknesses your grace covers me. Thank you so much God. Thank You. I just thought this was a good testimonial to focus on God's provision. He WILL provide for you according to his will. HE WILL. Just keep asking him. Keep at it!!
deb's outta there..
DEbBy [4/26/2007 02:00:00 AM]
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Tuesday, April 24, 2007
So Blessed....
Just came back from GRIP camp. It was so good. The set-up for the stage was amazing. The BTS (Behind-the-Scenes) team did a fantastic job. THey really, really did. I wish I could serve like that. Its so cool. I will try to get pictures of the stage up (If I can).
For one, we recently purchased $1200 worth of lights.. revolving lights.. flashing, coloured lights. Those you see at Hillsongs that have patterns thrown upon the crowd. In addition to that, we also have stationary normal coloured garden lights on stage - yellow, red, green, blue - you name it we have it!!
THROW in a smoke machine - YES people, we DID have a bitchin smoke machine!!! Controlled by whoever was playing drums - Wong, Jerry and Aaron mainly.
So, for the atmosphere, as mentioned, we had crazy lights, coloured lights, and a smoke machine. FURTHERMORE, the BTS team made a huge Banner. The theme was "DEEPER, STRONGER, FURTHER" and it was based around a super-hero theme. So, they drew "GRIP CAMP 2007", the slogan as well as a picture of Astro Boy. IT was so cool. We had a theme night as well, where everyone had to dress up as a superhero. Josh dressed up as Gambit (go figure), Kim was Lara Croft, Gayle was Sailormoon, ANYWAY, it was soo good. And the BTS did heaps of signs - all BY HAND. They did the Wonder-Woman logo, the Batman Logo.. it looked so professional and good!!
Alright, here come the spirituals..
THe speaker was fully sic!! He like totally blew me away. Everything he said was spot-on, nailing me. And, one of the best parts, is looking at Becky and Gayle worship lead. I mean.. I feel so encouraged and blessed by them. They are awesome, super go-getter chicks who DONT let up! I feel so thankful that God would actually let me have a tiny, small part with them - All those "vocal" lessons, as well as "worship-leading" lessons with Jerry and me. When they led, the Holy Spirit fell. I mean I have never seen some of the kids worship the way they did.
That's my heart. I guess. I wanna see people worship - wholeheartedly. And unlock their full potential in vocals especially (my area!!) to lift God and the Church up. Spiritually, as well as technically. I wanna see them go further and deeper in their relationship with GOd, and become stronger in character (well not physically for women - lol that'll just make girls burly). And be true worshippers!! HOW COOL is that?!!
deb's outta there..
DEbBy [4/24/2007 10:14:00 PM]
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Monday, April 16, 2007
If only...
If only.. God made me smarter, maybe I wouldnt feel so inadequate and small and stupid.
If only.. God made me that much smarter, I would get things faster. THen maybe I would not come last.
"I just have to beat Deb.. thats my goal"
If only.. God made me coordiated.. Then maybe I wouldnt be the first to get out of games.
If only.. GOd made me smart.. maybe losing won't hurt this bad.
but yeah.. HE DIDNT.
deb's outta there..
DEbBy [4/16/2007 01:00:00 AM]
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