Monday, June 20, 2005
All the other recent postings are titled with one word.. why?..
Tomorrow i have 2 exams.. FE and EFDA.. stressing!! really badly.. But i can honestly say for EFDA i have tried my best. For FE i think i neglected it for too long cos i was doing EFDA more.. so right now im panicking and stressing over it..
Ok see you soon.
deb's outta there..
DEbBy [6/20/2005 05:31:00 PM]
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Sunday, June 19, 2005
Alone"
“alone” Meaning of Word: “alone” - “ unaccompanied, single handedly, by yourself”.
What a word… hits the nail on the head for describing my feeling… its so..er.. lonely? When you realize that in actual fact, I can’t really depend on anyone here… er.. there’s Josh, he’s great (pls I’m not blog bashing anyone right now ok)… but at the end of the day.. when you really need someone to be there.. just to look after you.. someone to do stuff for you even when its not convenient for them… someone that really actually cares if you pass your exam or not.. someone that accepts who I am for who I am and not care about imposing any of their “rites, way of thinking, way of life” etc on me.. Don’t know how to say this.. there’s no one, really.. here that I can rely on like that here.. I mean.. other people have their own problems and their lives don’t exactly revolve around me.. (haha). In reality.. there’s really no one except my own family..
ARGGH.. I love you Mummy n Papa..
Sometimes I know I can be hard to take.. like.. how I don’t really have respect for anyone.. unless You’ve done something that I’ve seen and I’ve deemed worthy of respect.. or how I speak my mind and give it to you straight in your face.. how sarcarstic and cutting I can be (when I don’t like you).. how stubborn I am when I want my way I always get it… (and I mean always). How spoilt I am.. (not really complaining about that one… I love being spoilt.. but that’s just me.. not like anyone will understand..
Taking a break from studying right now.. arggh.. exams are coming up and Im screwed for one subject at the moment.. its 1.10am now.. will prolly update again later on tonight. Exams.. stress….. .. I really feel like.. going to bed.. and staying there for the rest of my life.. Under the covers.. where no one can get me and my smellie pillow (whom is now falling apart due to frequent usage) to protect me from pain. My duckdown pillows.. I love the smell of my whole bed.. haha and my dog Milly and my Cat Miffy.. haha ok ill stop there… see you later on at about 3am… or 5 am..
Deb's outta here..
DEbBy [6/19/2005 03:43:00 AM]
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Friday, June 10, 2005
Scary..
today was... interesting.. went to uni this morning, met up with 3 of my subject tutors.. they were all very encouraging, but i dont think i have a great grasp of the subjects yet.. so anyway this part of the day isn't very interesting.
Moving on, then went home, and watched Friends Season 9.. thanks Gaius! THis part of the day is ALSO not very interesting.. nvm..
Then.. showered, got ready for small group dinner.. it was at Cafe Bravo and organised by yours truly.. this was the most interesting part of my day. But before I blog this, have to tell you about something else.. haha that just only happened... the phone just rang. Then when i ran to pick it up.. the caller was like.. "HELLO.. WHO IS THIS???" walao.. ask me who i am.. pls loh.. he call one ok.. then i was like.. erm.. "who are you?".. then he said.."Are you Deborah?? well, CAN I speak to Melissa?? Where is she arh??".. haha then i was gettin abit irritated.. can u blame me?? Never answer my question then ask me another question on top of that.. so i was like "who is this calling please??" then he was like.. "this is Melissa's older brother." Then i was like.. "OH CRAP!!.. no wonder he call then say all this.. walao... haha so paiseh in the end..
Which reminds me.. Melissa and her Mother and her aunties are in Melbourne.. they left like.. on Tuesday or Wednesday in the day.. i only realised they were gone like.. yesterday night.. and i had to ask sherwin where they were.. so gong right...
OK that aside!~! where was i?? oh yeah.. getting ready to go out..
Had to drive myself there (cos there's no one else mah).. and it was the pouring down with the heaviest rain ever.. i mean business.. its the perfect weather for me.. cos i love this weather to sleep and stay at home infront of the heater and just relax... i really love this weather.. but i hate driving in this weather...
But no choice. Kind of Had to..cos i organised that small group.. so.. with it pouring with rain and thunder and lightning streaks across the night sky.. (boy this sounds like a movie hey) hehe.. but its true!! i set off.. praying and praying i wouldn't crash or anything.. then!! halfway through.. the street lights and traffic lights went black... BLACKOUT!! so scary.. and plus my phone was ringing with my small group people telling me to meet directly at the cafe, and not at the designated spot. SO scary man.. there was no light.. my first thought was.. eh.. how come my car lights are gone???? haha.. then i realised that oh.. its the street lights that are gone!!
But thank God!! No crashes!! AND i found a park very very easily!!
Ok now I'm back home!! yay!! safe and sound in one piece.. ok.. gtg now just had to blog that..
deb's outta there..
DEbBy [6/10/2005 10:55:00 PM]
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Wednesday, June 08, 2005
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I've spent the past 2 days in the library.. yesterday from 1pm - 6pm, and today from 10am - present (3.10pm).. i DUN FEEL LIKE STUDYIN... walao.. why WHY WHY do i have so much things that I do not understand.. i feel like sleepin now.. i feel like going home and playing prehistorix2, or commanderkeen (speaking of which have yet to download).. sigh..
Summore the dude who teaches Labor Economics is OUT TO GET US.. walao. he's from America.. today he was like.. "i was looking through your exam.. its gonna be a pretty tough one.. you will need to know every concept in the book to pass and do really well." .. man.. i think he's trying to scare us into studying. WHICH IS, FYI, is WORKING.
im just taking a break (100th one so far).. wahaha.
deb's outta there..
DEbBy [6/08/2005 04:07:00 PM]
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Sunday, June 05, 2005
Sunday..
Well today is sunday. Woke up at 7 plus cos i heard my housematies talking in the kitchen.. then slapped the alarm down and woke up at 8.15am.. then.. went back to sleep and woke up at 8.30am.. slowly got dressed, and left the house at 8.50am.. got to church just 10 minutes late (not bad for such a lazy mornin hey) and sat in the back row with Serena..
Serena is SUCH A GREAT FRIEND :) omg haha.. then after church had bible study on praying for your friends (yep my group got the point pretty quickly!!) :) Then had lunch with Serena and went home. Mel's rellies are here. not bad actually.. i thought it would be loud and noisy but it really isn't!
Trying to do some work now, but finding it so hard to concentrate... hai.. also don't feel like blog-bashing.. ok lah.. gotta go. and TRY to study.
deb's outta there..
DEbBy [6/05/2005 03:12:00 PM]
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Saturday, June 04, 2005
boring day
Well.. after last night (slept at 4am plus).. woke up today at 8.15am.. decided not to go to the gym.. then really woke up at 10.30am.. got ready and left the house. Had lunch (Yum Char) at Cafe Kowloon with my friends.. it was great catching up with them.. one of them is leaving for Singapore on Sunday for her brother's wedding.. but coming back really soon.. i wish i can go back to Singapore now.. avoid everything happening here..
Then after lunch, dropped by church for "Prayer Day". Was quite interesting really.. :) i drew my prayer with crayons.. what a creative way to pray hey!!
Then came home, started cleaning my room, and rearranging everything in my clothing drawer.. chucked out almost half my wardrobe.. cos i dont really wear half the clothes i buy.. sigh.
still hasn't gotten any better.. now im just trying to avoid everyone and everything.. still feeling so confused. DAMN YOU. DARN YOU. DAMMMMMNNN You!!!!!!!
why the hell does stuff happen? and just before exams to. i just want to go to sleep and NEVER GET OUT OF BED. ever...
Oh well, i talked to sam till late last night.. sometimes i seriously think that of all the people i know, Sam is probably the person that most cares. To me, yep, he's considered family. haha. Felt abit better after.
Mel's parents are coming tomorrow.. which means that i would be cleaning the kitchen tops as well as vacumming my room and washing the dishes and trying to study...
Tomorrow is church.. yay.
Ok i have to go.. do all of the above + shower..
deb's outta there..
DEbBy [6/04/2005 06:04:00 PM]
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Wednesday, June 01, 2005
So confusing..
This is so confusing.. hai.. i hate feeling so confused. I don't even know why im feeling like this. its all because of YOU. DAMN YOU. why do u have to do what you do. Can't blame you can I??
Well anyway.. arggghh i hate you - u stoopid uni.
So much WORK to do.. so little time to do it too. :0(
ok have to get back to doing work.
Sashi, im glad you had a great time in Brissy.
deb's outta there..
DEbBy [6/01/2005 11:40:00 PM]
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