Control Freak??
These past few days i have come to realise a little bit more about myself.. today i had a conversation with someone who i respect alot when it comes to reading people and worship. She told me that I have a strong personality (that part I already know), and when i lead worship i tend to want to be in control. And I am a control freak when it comes to worship.. so I may tend to clash with some people on the music team.
I mean.. yeah i realised later how true this statement is. Whenever I lead worship I feel that since I'm the worship leader, I should have some kind of plan to know where to take the congregation. And therefore, I should convey what i want to do to my worship team. In doing this, i guess im kind of wanting to be in control. Like.. the ball falls at me since I am in this position, so yeah.
But please tell me if im bossy or bossing people around - I really don't think I do that. I guess i'm harder on the back up vocals, because its my passion, and i push myself harder than I ever have on this than I ever have on anything else. And so i end up tending to be a perfectionist when it comes to this type of thing. Gosh i am saying "tend" alot aren't I??
Well, I'm leading worship next sunday anyway, So more on that to come.
Cant wait to go to the gym with Karen tomorrow.. Karen if you're reading.. 5.40pm at the gym ok? See ya then.
deb's outta there..
