ThouGHTs.
Today my day was up n running. Got up early n went to Victoria Markets, then shopping in Melbourne City.. then went to Chadstone Mall to shop again. Melbourne is the Best place to go shopping!!!! I really recommend you visit this place.
I also got to spend some quality time with my mom n grandma, mostly my mother. yeah.. I see the path she has chosen for herself, and she has no regrets... 4 kids that love her, a great husband, a great Job.. God has indeed blessed her so much.
I don't know what path I'll choose, this will affect how I live the rest of my days out on the earth.. sounds deep hey.. its what I stay awake sometimes at night n ponder to myself.. what on earth will my life turn out to be??
How do I want my life to go?? for the next 30 years.. What do I want to become? What do I want to be known for and others to see me as?? Good?? Awesome? Stubborn?? What will I choose? Money or Happiness? To live a life of service? To dedicate myself to earning money? To be a Worship Pastor? To be a stockbroker? To be WHAT????? I mean... so many options for me to choose. The worst thing is, when I come to the end of my life, what will it mean for me? Will I have any regrets??
GOd i wanna serve you. I don't care what I do. I want to give up my life n commit it into your hand. I wanna love others n be loved. I wanna exsist just to do that.. breathe n live just for YOu.. I want to become a pastor.. maybe even a worship paastor.. if You're willing..if not i wanna just lead worship the rest of my whole life (if you're willing again)... I don't care if i just push chairs or clean toilets the rest of my life.. if I'm just doing it for yOU n YOUr HOuse.
bUT where's the security in doing that?? What will I live on? Love?? Air?? I know you say to trst u, but HOW can i take that step of faith? HOw can?? ARGGHH.
deb's outta there..
